My apologies for not being able to post anything yesterday, which happens to be Valentine’s Day. I’m not really a big “fan” of Valentine’s Day, but I was planning to write something “motherly”. Unfortunately, possibly due to the stress I was experiencing (as described in my previous post), I wasn’t able to go to work yesterday.

I can hardly get up from the bed and I had fever. I can’t breathe properly through my clogged nose and I was aching all over. All I can do was lie down and sleep. I can’t even catch up on my reading as I’d fall asleep by the time I’m on my second page.

Add to that the fact that my PC at home is broken. We’re still having ti fixed and I was actually hoping it’d be fixed today. The unit came in today (we had it delivered at the office), but as it turned out, the motherboard is still broken. I am getting really frustrated already, but there’s nothing I can do. My husband talked to the seller and good thing they’re willing to check up on the unit again. They’d be picking up the unit tomorrow, a Saturday, but good thing I have to be at the office anyway for a report I need to do and submit.

By the way, my husband is away for the weekend for an event at a province up north of the country. This is the first time we’re gonna be away from each other for the whole weekend. Well, first time since we had a baby. I had to go to a city south of the country a couple of times a couple of weeks after our wedding.

Anyway, I’m sorry if I’m boring you with episodes of my sorry life, but I’m feeling really down right now. But who can blame me? My son’s nanny is pregnant and I can’t find a replacement, my PC is broken, I’m aching all over and suffering from colds and fever, my beloved husband is away for the weekend, and we’re being back stabbed by somebody who used to be dear to our family.

Sucks to be me. At least right now.

I promise my next entry will be a lot better and more interesting than this.

Thanks to Powermixradio.com for the sad girl pic.

I am so stressed right now.

I have so many ideas for blog entries lined up but I can’t string sensible words together.

We’ve just confirmed this morning that my 15-month-old son’s nanny is pregnant. She’s 20 years old. Actually she already told me a couple of weeks ago that she’s planning to go home to her province to look for her mom, who hasn’t replied to any of her letters yet. She’s in no hurry, though, and she was willing to wait until I find a replacement. She didn’t know then that she was already pregnant.

But now, I’m kinda pressured to find a new nanny ASAP. I don’t want to take the risk of her having a miscarriage due to too much exhaustion while taking care of my son.

It didn’t help also that I just got betrayed by somebody who’s saying things about me and my husband behind our backs. I’m just ignoring her and I have no plans of stooping down to her level, but my pregnancy hormones have magnified every single emotion I feel so I’m very sensitive these past few weeks. And that sensitivity is making me feel really bad about something that isn’t worth my time.

Argh. Please let me get through this week with my sanity intact.